resolve

just blogging.

watched the heroes season 2 episode 1... something strucked me there... when a guy asked claire... are you a robot? or an alien?
robots do what they are told to...
aliens do what they want...
so i may consider myself as an alien...

i'll do what i want to do... but still submit to God's will... it's my choice... my decision

to listen to His will...

in relation to this... i finished reading the "anthem"... and it is still related to the topic -> your choice and decisions... must not do what others tell you... not do what they impose on you... you are what you are... you have your own choices... you have freedom...

and there is this 'group' that they tell their members what to do... what is evil and what is good... you have no identity as an individual... there are laws that must be obeyed.. rules that are implemented... in it... there is no grace and mercy... boring... you must submit to their authorities... or else... you will be removed from the group...

lessons learned...

i'll keep my faith no matter what...

God is good... all the time... does not change...

He works in ways I cannot see...

Praise the Lord..

I'm thankful there are brothers in Christ who without their knowledge encouraged me by a simple txt message... right in that moment where in i'm seeking for answers....

"whatever challenges life throws at you, just shake it off, step up, keep the faith! Gudam!"
-toti

ah... thank God for this simple message... a message that has a great impact in my current situation right now...

i know God did not forsake me... did not left me..

He is good...

while in the worship service... while singing the "Lord I offer my life to you..."
i realized something... if i were to offer my life to God, will it be a pleasing sacrifice before him... looking back when israelites make their offerings before God, they offer their best lambs... the best products... but for me... if i were to offer myself... will it be pleasing?... this sinful person that i am... i think it will have a bad smell if i were to be burned... abraham was ready to offer isaac before God because he knew... isaac was the best... and deserving to be offered to God... but me... if i were to be dissected and burn to be an offering before God... it will not please him... just like the offering of Cain... not the best... but the least...

after that... i remembered the message of the pastor... way back... according to grace... mercy... coming from God..

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.

the grace of God will enable me to offer myself to Him... to be a pleasing sacrifice before him... His mercy endures forever...

found my resolve...

I will keep my faith... will continue on...

I will live for Him...

:D

-------------
i will bless the Lord at all times
i will lift His holy name
for the Lord is good
and worthy to be praised
i will sing to Him a brand new song.